of dizziness and hummus

05.02.2012

It is 35days since I've smoked my last cigarette. I'm not mentioning it in order to get an applaud, I only just discovered that apparently I don't HAVE TO inhale things. Just sometimes have this little thought on the back of my head-would be nice to have a fag, especially after satisfying meal...

I've spent last night on the tiled floor at the back of O.' kitchen. Did not sleep well, I must say. Was a bit dissapointed that I had so little time to have a proper conversations, as M. had exams the next day and had to go to sleep rather early. Woke up feeling weak, dizzy and unwilling to live. We spoke of shitty prospects for our existence. Managed to get into even worse mood. Then we assembled new piece of furniture- looks like a  rack for meat to me, but no nevermind.
I think this was the last time I stayed overnight at O.'s place.
Maybe will change my mind, when Spring comes. Oh Spring, where are Thou??
Prospects of Opeth concert is getting more and more distant. I'm so broke, it hurts. Where are all those rich people with great artistic taste, willing to spend shitloads of money on my one of a kind weirdness?? Am seriously lacking inner force to create. The bounce is gone from my bungee.
Heavy frost every single day, and clear, blinding sky. My eye lashes stick together if I don't bat my eyelids often enough.
In addition to my already miserable life, I have terrible muscle pains as I only recently started to exercise with weights (don't even know how heavy they are, I estimate them to be 4 kilos each) and also stretch myself  a bit. There is certain pleasure in such body working, and I understand that pain is an inevitable thing. I think there is some competition between me and O. as it comes to exercising. He's such a show-off.

No visible progress on anything.

Prospect of a concert of group called Cynis, next friday.O.'s bassist will perform there. I might only go to see him playing, as I find him rather nice guy ( bassist, not O.).
Also-LaoChe on 26th of February.

ps.my first home made hummus became an instant hit! It is simple and it's yummy:
1 cup of chickpeas (some 175g)
1 table spoon of lemon juice
1/4 cup of oil
pinch of salt
pinch of black pepper
pinch of dried chilli
as much garlic as desired ( I added just one clove and it really stands out )
some coriander-crushed.

Soak chickpeas for some 15 hours or so, then cook them until soft. Mix all ingredients with blender. Eat within three days.